Last week, a friend of mine inhaled a mixture of bleach and toilet cleaner and she fainted, apparently it was toxic or something.
How are humans so weak and yet so strong?
Everyday, you inhale toxic bullshit from people, swallow toxicity from your partner and you still breathe? And then, just some simple chemicals and you’re gasping? Wow. Okay, I get it, they’re harsh chemicals but just humour me.
How is it that our bodies don’t feel emotional pain physically? Maybe that would teach us to make better decisions. It does happen, in a few rare cases. You can get a broken heart from having a broken heart. Funny.
I remember the first time I felt physical pain from an emotional trauma, my best friend had just broken up with him and told me I was trash. I fell to the floor and broke down crying. After a few hours, I started to gasp. My chest hurt..I had no tears left to cry, I was severely dehydrated and my body could not handle that. I passed out or fell asleep or something..I woke up later when it was dark outside, and I was able to breathe again. But if it was a physical pain, I’d still be incapacitated. But I digress.
Toxicity is something that is in our everyday lives, so much so that we barely notice it. It is sometimes subtle, and other times, painfully glaring. It is in the way my ex complimented me for being less dramatic when I get on my period recently, when we both know he shamed me into keeping quiet about it..with his looks, his taunts, his words.. toxicity is the way you smile when I bend to your wishes. I don’t know where I am going with this, I lost my train of thought and my head hurts.