Oh no. What is she doing now? I can’t see through the blindfold but I feel an ice cube on my clit. And quite unbelievably, I have another orgasm. To think I almost didn’t come. According to her, this was just the tip of the iceberg. Nice play on words, don’t you think.? I feel her tongue warming up the parts of me that still stung from the ice. She sucks on my clit, lapping up my juices even as it gets replaced almost immediately..Her tongue thrusts in out of me repeatedly, purposefully, driving me to climax and breaking down all the walls and doubts I had. Her tongue is briefly replaced by the index finger on her left hand.. She uses her right hand to tease my beaded nipples and gives each of my breasts a satisfying squeeze..Her thumb circles and presses down on my clit. Bringing me to a very earth shattering high..my fifth orgasm in two hours. I am spent.

Empty, vacant , void, spaced out . . Okay, maybe the last one is a bit out of shape/ or out of tune. . Who knows? The point is . .

I’ve been feeling rather distant to myself and yes, i know that’s not a thing but i feel like i’m lost or rather in a black hole .

And just falling , falling into the dark abyss of neverland. A never ending rush of air and not the good kind of rush. How do I feel? I don’t know. Unbothered? Calm? Happy even? I don’t know.

Sometimes I feel like, I’m just going through the motions, like I’m not present. Like I’m watching a show. The show is my life. I can’t even act a role. I just watch helplessly.

And other times, I feel like I have no beginning and no end. I guess I’m getting closer to God lol… I don’t know where I am right now, or where I want to be or what I am. And that truly scares me, because the society has made it unacceptable not to know.